nouveau_monday (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
nouveau_monday) wrote2008-07-13 02:25 pm
nouveau_monday) wrote2008-07-13 02:25 pm
I'm a big dork
I'm a big dork. I am. It's true.
When people on my flist ask for recommendations on what to read, i never suggest my own stuff because that seems really arrogant, even though i'd love their opinion on it if they aren't commenters (on my stuff) by nature. So that's one reason i'm a big dork.
The second is that I'm totally tickled by the fact that a whole bunch of people have mentioned me in why they wrote/posted/whatever. I get all weird and blushy and *awwwwww* people actually like me. Is that totally stupid on my part? It kinda feels like. Maybe, again, I'm just a big dork.
The third reason is one I was talking about with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
ithilien22 while we contemplate our collective fandom head exploding piece of doom (CFHEPoD, hmmm, catchy no?). People have asked me when chapters of things are coming. They're going to pop onto machines in internet cafes while on vacation to read my stuff. What is that about? And just so you know, this isn't me looking for attention-whoring flattery right now, it's really honest to god me not getting it. I write. I've written all my life. There are people who write spectacular stuff in my fandom of choice, and in my fandoms of choice to read (j2, spn, criminal minds and atwt primarily). Really good stuff. By comparison my writing often feels juvenile. And yet, I've had more requests for RPS and rentboys than I know what to do with, and apparently counter top sex was made of win for many people. I don't know. I guess I don't get it. I feel so removed from the fandom in so many ways, and yet, people want to read what I think about it. Just, yeah, monday=big dork.
When people on my flist ask for recommendations on what to read, i never suggest my own stuff because that seems really arrogant, even though i'd love their opinion on it if they aren't commenters (on my stuff) by nature. So that's one reason i'm a big dork.
The second is that I'm totally tickled by the fact that a whole bunch of people have mentioned me in why they wrote/posted/whatever. I get all weird and blushy and *awwwwww* people actually like me. Is that totally stupid on my part? It kinda feels like. Maybe, again, I'm just a big dork.
The third reason is one I was talking about with
ithilien22 while we contemplate our collective fandom head exploding piece of doom (CFHEPoD, hmmm, catchy no?). People have asked me when chapters of things are coming. They're going to pop onto machines in internet cafes while on vacation to read my stuff. What is that about? And just so you know, this isn't me looking for attention-whoring flattery right now, it's really honest to god me not getting it. I write. I've written all my life. There are people who write spectacular stuff in my fandom of choice, and in my fandoms of choice to read (j2, spn, criminal minds and atwt primarily). Really good stuff. By comparison my writing often feels juvenile. And yet, I've had more requests for RPS and rentboys than I know what to do with, and apparently counter top sex was made of win for many people. I don't know. I guess I don't get it. I feel so removed from the fandom in so many ways, and yet, people want to read what I think about it. Just, yeah, monday=big dork.